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KurohikoKazuha

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I wanted to update my journal a few days ago but everything was just too hectic for me to do so and the mobile Deviantart sucks. its like 3 months into school and I am sick of it, I'm trying my best already but I just can't keep up with it. In middle school, teachers keep track of everything now I have to. I am honestly having a really hard to transitioning into high school. More overly I'm failing my classes (well failing in Asian standards but yea..)
I once had a journal a few months back about my cousin and me, well now, I'm losing the race. All my classmates are having a good time in high school but just not me, this week, I got a 33% on a chemistry quiz and a 62% on an English test. it has really been a bad week and now my new lab teacher that replaced my old one is saying that I didn't do the lab when I did it and everyone saw me do it. I  am really impressed how I have the courage to laugh it all out but deep inside, I know I am sad but I just lost all my ways of telling other people I can't anymore with my facial expressions, I got so use of laughing, I'm scared to let other people know what I am really thinking...
this might be my last journal until marking period 2 ends (in two weeks or so) and I am sorry if I am missing out on all the Deviantart things and not replying to anyone. I don't want to give up on school yet like my sister, there are many things that I want to do but I know my limits, I'm trying all my best and maybe this is all I will ever get to but at least, I can proudly say in the near future I tried, right?
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So some of my Deviantart friends might not know but my nickname is Queen Bee (because my school mascot is the hornet so I named myself Queen Bee).

Today was a pretty rough day in school A LOT of exams this week and I was quite busy to begin with. From my journal yesterday, I said that a birthday just is another day but my friends proved me wrong today.
When I came back home, two of my friends showed up at my door for my birthday. I honestly did not expect them to go through this length for my birthday and I was really happy because someone actually cares enough to do so.
Cam00294[1] by KurohikoKazuha This was what they brought along with them.
Although this may not mean anything to others, it means so much to me because this is one of the few times in my life that someone had shown me, I am not nothing.
Thank you both for going through all the trouble for me. I love you.
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Tomorrow is my birthday (it is currently 10:39 pm on 10-21-13) so yay for me.
I'm growing older ;-; 14 years of living as animal on a floating rock in space with our lives ruled with numbers and letters. haha, how nice.

These days, I'm passing my classes with good grades and getting a sufficient amount of sleep with enough time to hang with my friends so I'm quite happy as things are now but the saddest part is that I can't reply to anything of Deviantart, the mobile version just sucks so much!

While I was in school, it just caught my attention that a birthday is just another day of the week filled with exams and school and busy-ness all over again. So sad, its just like our childhood is flying by us where a birthday really meant something with a big celebration and all that. I wish I was back there once again, back in elementary school, back to being a dumb girl; back to being a happy girl.

So how is everything on Deviantart going, although I come on and check some stuff out almost everyday but because the phone version is that bad, I can't really click anywhere. I'll be back another day, if I keep staying up, I'll end up sleepy in class again. Bai bai ;-;
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A LOT of WIPS

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Have you ever gotten the feeling of drawing the line art of a piece then too lazy to continue it? Well I have, it is literally the most annoying feeling ever!
Here are some of mine wips (work in process) so they can get the exposure that other of my drawings got.
Cam00250[1] by KurohikoKazuha (currently still working on it, its been like 2 weeks already)
Cam00121[1] by KurohikoKazuha (I failed on they eyes and I destroyed it)
Cam00112[1] by KurohikoKazuha (the lovely timeline of Cana! I got tried to drawing it so I gave up....)
Cam00110[1] by KurohikoKazuha (Fairy tail~ I really wanted to continue this one but I think I messed up on the lineart)
There are like so much others (but I forgot to take a picture of it) hehehe~

While I was writing this some dude just knocked on my door and I was like epically freaked out (refer to my other journal for why)
Then it turned out to be the police .-.
Epic moment of shit right now

And once again, I'm sorry for not being able to reply to all my comments, I am crazy busy right now and mobile Deviantart is crazy (trust me, it is!)
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I'm scared.

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At like 4:15-4:30 am in the morning, some dude was trying to break in into my house (?) and I was awake during that time.
At first I only thought it was a prank until it got serious and we had to call the police. It is now 5:07 am and I am still awake, I am like super scared. I am kinda blaming the reason on myself because if I wasn't awake and I haven't opened the light then it wouldn't have happened.
The aftermath seems scary and I don't want this to happen again. I tried to forcefully laugh like how I always do it but I can't.
This fear is different from the fear of taking a shot or other things, I am internally shaking and it has infected my outer self. I don't get how my mom is still joking happily, maybe she has been through more than I have. Even thought I never said it, I always looked up to my mom and I want to become a strong person like her someday.....someday. And that is the reason why I always strive for the best in academics and other things.
My parents took the air conditioner down and closed the windows and shades. I haven't seen it all closed for a long time and I hope it won't ever be, ever again...
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